I'll preface this by first saying that I've been a member of MJJC and MJJForum before for close to a decade.
I never posted on these forums until after the unthinkable happened last June [was using the Dangerous21.1 account temporarily after June].
I was on a long drive yesterday - listening to Michael as always - when it occurred to me what was happening. I hadn't been able to check this site for a couple days and I was missing it. I was missing all of you collectively. I realized that this forum has become some sort of separate world where Michael's energy is everlasting. This place feels somewhat peaceful, and full of Love.
I was thinking about why I never wrote here before. Part of the answer is me. This being an internet forum of basically random strangers all over the world, I didn't feel the need to voice my opinion to people I would most likely never meet. I preferred to read, and listen. The main reason I came here for years was to get the latest news/pictures/links/updates on Michael and to see what you all had to say about those things. This place is like an encyclopedia of Michael Jackson knowledge.
But even that does not explain why. The truth is, I never needed or wanted to speak here because I already had a connection with the man himself. I know so many of us have felt this way. I truly felt an amazing, one-on-one connection with Michael no matter how far away from me he was. I would see a picture of his Curls or read his message to his fans on this forum, and then I would get all excited about it and tell everyone, including him! Magically, somehow he would know what I thought or felt...like during the trial, I just knew that he knew I loved and supported him. We had developed a bond, an understanding, a love over all those years of my life.
EVERYTHING about Michael for me was my own special relationship.
I've seen over the years, and over the past seven months especially, that this same relationship was shared by millions of us. That's a power of his that is truly understated. It's magic. It's his L.O.V.E.
But this all changed in June. Michael means everything to me. As I cried in June...and July...and August...and September...and on....the only thing that helped was this place. This home for Michael, for us. This community has endured so much and shared so many real emotions over the years with the media, the trial, this. It's unbelievable how one man can do so much to so many. The pain has come from our L.O.V.E.
I truly believe that once Michael touches someone, he becomes a part of them in a way that is undeniable and pure. We are all obviously the lucky ones who see the beauty in this man. And I feel blessed to have lived when he lived, to have listened to his voice, watched his dance, seen him (once!), learned from him, been loved by him.
To be touched by Michael (like all of us have) is to become him. We wear his clothes, his armbands, his finger tape, his glove, his hat. We dance like him (or try). We hate the media. We care about the poor and sick. We fight for truth and justice. We love nature. We play with kids and animals. We listen to his music of course. We watch his videos constantly. We try to inspire. We love. We dream.
In all of us is Michael Jackson. We are him. We've always had parts of him. You might have his voice. He might have his moves. Or she might have his heart.
Together, we are thousands of unique stories, similarities, and perspectives of Michael Jackson from all over the world. We embody his L.O.V.E. We laugh and cry and care for each other like he would. We continue his legacy. His spirit, energy, heart is in us.
I havn't gotten over this. Nor do I ever want to. I miss Michael constantly. During those times when I really miss him, it helps to bring the Michael within me (*my Michael* ) next to all of *your Michaels* because collectively it then feels like he is still here with us. I don't know how else to deal with this, but to believe that he lives within us....
By Dangerous21 (MJJC Member)
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Jan 29, 2010
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