(Reposted from my blog, Casa DeFrias, at the request of @ariajuliet)
I spent the last six days in Austin, Texas, attending South by Southwest. There are three tracks (Interactive, Film and Music), and I attended the interactive one for work.
The most impactful panel was a little publicized, intimate panel on the final day called "Twittering Thru Chemo - Survivors Unite" and was moderated by Drew Olanoff and Brian Simpson (the former famous of the #BlameDrewsCancer meme on Twitter).
There was so much love and power in the room, and I felt it kind of wash over me when I got up to share my story, and ask for advice.
"I'm a melanoma survivor, and am currently dealing with the uterine cancer I was diagnosed with 4 weeks ago. We're trying to harvest my eggs via IVF before they take my uterus out on April 12. My question is more of a comment, really: every time I mention I'm a cancer survivor, I feel like a fake. A phony.
Like I only kind of have cancer, since both times we caught it really early so I never had to go through chemo or radiation. So I feel like a fake survivor. Kind of like only being a little pregnant."
Both guys were gracious and understanding, and made me feel better about my situation. Surviving's surviving, no matter how much -- or how little -- you go through, they said.
It was at that point that I began tearing up again. Why? Because I'm so caught up in taking my IVF meds and keeping the schedule for them straight, plus mentally bulking up for the hysterectomy, that I forget the reality of what's going on really means. Wanting to be a mom, and also dealing with the cancer once more.
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