I remember discussing something along this line with @AerinBlue after the posting of the Never Let Me Go review. I didn't think too much of it since I've always believed death will come whenever it is time and unlike my parents and many of the people I know, I've no qualms about leaving this planet as I feel I've done what I wish to do in life. Perhaps not entirely everything, but majority of the big things!
Anyhow, it was Good Friday and Easter last weekend and even as I was writing about Easter and am aware of the sufferings Christ went through and also his ultimate resurrection, I wasn't thinking too much about His death or mine (when the day comes, that is) for that matter.
Clearly, that's not the case. It's strange how one's consciousness takes over one's subconscious (usually, I'd have thought it's the other way round). As things would have it, I had the strangest dream (or alternatively, a nightmare as it was real eerie) last night. I dreamed about dying, literally the last few minutes of it, plunging through some water (as I had phobias about drowning in the past) and I clearly remember during those last moments before waking up with a surprising thought, I don't want to die!!!! For many friends (who are normal adults, I'm assuming) whom I've had discussion about death with before, they often steered away from this topic of conversation as Chinese and many Asians are superstitious and refuse to talk about dying else it comes true for them! Yet, for some strange reasons, I often find it a conflicting belief as even the few Christians I came across prefer to live than to surrender their lives to Christ (unless they have no choice over that matter!). What I mean is they are not anxious to return to the Father. Rather, they prefer to live here with their families. Get what I'm trying to say?
Anyhow, for me, I had often thought I was ready... it turns out I'm NOT ready!!! That's quite a shocking discovery for me, even if it is not to you. Now, what is it that I'm missing in life that I feel it's too early to die? Or, is it an instinctive response to any and everyone who is normal and not suffering from hallucinations or depressions?
So, no, Aerin, I don't think I'm ready to die or willing to, even when the time comes. It's not that I don't trust about the soul or where we'll all end up after death. It's rather that I still have something unfulfilled in this life... that something which makes living a worthy journey and one that should be in search of! That makes me one of the majority... we are all not ready and willing to die! In other words, let's start living this life (IF you haven't done so already)!
Yes, we will all die one day and we will have some fears of the unknown or even the irrational. Unfortunately, it is a certainty that we cannot escaped from, it's a sooner or later matter. It'd be interesting for us to discover if we're willing (or unwilling) to die when the time come though, isn't it? Naturally, you don't have to think about it if you don't want to. However, having gone through a dream like that, I'd have to say that thinking about it helps puts one's life in perspective and prioritizes the important things in life! I know now that I'd certainly dread it when it comes! Yes, in some ways I've gone through the motion of dying and that qualifies me for this review, I suppose! :p
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Death is the termination of the biological functions that sustain a living organism. The word refers both to the particular processes of life's cessation as well as to the condition or state of a formerly living body. Phenomena which commonly bring about death includepredation, malnutrition, accidents resulting in terminal injury, and disease.
The nature of death has been for millennia a central concern of the world's religious traditions and of philosophical enquiry, and belief in some kind of afterlife or rebirth has been a central aspect of religious belief. In modern scientific enquiry, the origin and nature of consciousness has yet to be fully understood; any such view about the existence or non-existence of consciousness after death therefore remains speculative.