BY Jason Standart
If a pictures worth a thousand words
Then what you they say when you look at me?
Do you see a proud Pinoy
Or just an Asian gay boy
Growing up alone, confused, not sure of who I am
Why don’t I look at girls but instead at that man
I’m much more than a stereotype
This is who I was born to be
But why is gay all that anyone can see
You make jokes I’m a woman
And I laugh and go with it
Even though I am bothered
I’d rather stay quiet.
Laughter and a smile that’s how you picture me
Cuz the sadness inside I’ll let nobody see
Stay strong for my family, I must be that glue
Sacrificing me for their happiness
That’s what I choose to do.
They are my family, my world, and my life
I take care of my sisters
Cuz I‘ll never have a wife.
I hate my job at the Spag Factory
I only stay sane because of our Mantary
They say I can’t say “NO”
This is something I must learn to do
To start living my life for me
And not how you want me to.
What is my passion? What is my desire?
I have no clue, I just want to retire.
But I must stay strong, don’t take the easy way out
I’m slowly learning who I am and what I’m all about
Life is a journey, no one said that it wouldn’t be hard.
Sometimes you get hurt like a broken glass shard.
Obstacles and barriers I’ve gone through and overcame
I’ve had a lot of love lose, but also a lot of love gain
I have people who love an except me for who I am,
That’s all I can ask for
Who knew opening that closet could open another door.
The door to my soul, the key to my spirit
The ability to love, and the pain that goes with it
The completion of me may take a little more time
But I know I’m on the path to a life that’s all mine.
There is still more of my life, stories about me
But its stuff I’m not yet ready for the world to see.
But trust me one day I’ll let my soul free
To fly with no limits
To soar with not worries
But until that day, these are just a few of Jonathans’ stories.
